Addressing those who care, I'm enjoying my stay in Texas. Or, I'm trying to. The internet is slow and I haven't made many friends but I'm accomplishing what I'm here to do so that's what matters. Thankfully I have been able to use the internet at all, though at the moment I'm not using my own computer. Sometimes you don't realize how much you'd miss something until you deprive yourself of it. I left my personal computer back home thinking it'd be an unnecessary distraction while I'm here, but a few weeks along and I miss Windows 7 Ultimate, I miss Google Chrome (the internet here is too slow to download it on the computer I'm using), I miss Photoshop and I miss all of my personal projects.
One of my personal projects of which is the subject of this journal entry. If by now you're still clueless as to what The Eighth Deadly Sin is, either you don't +Watch me or you don't +Watch me (oldest rhetoric in the book, I know). Because from journal entries to Deviations I have been bombarding my +Watchers with TEDS content for the last few months. TEDS is a project I started that challenges religious conservatism by damning the one thing that all Christians value: the act of creation itself. It plays off the Seven Deadly Sins, adding creation as an eighth. The story itself is about a team of geneticists working for a government-funded research project who go rogue and begin bioengineering amazing and deadly creatures of their own conception, threatening natural order and even human society. As development on TEDS progressed since I ignited the flame in August 2011 with a simple campfire story to scare my friends, it became very special to me because more than anything else it's become an expression of myself and what I love: creatures and controversy. And what I love even more about it is that TEDS has allowed me to "salvage" discarded concepts from abandoned projects and even dreams or random ideas that would have all decayed in the back of my mind had they not been "reincarnated" into TEDS, hence why I call it a pile of trash: one project's trash is another project's treasure.
For example, the everglade shark was inspired by a creature I dreamt about; a creature which likely would have never seen the light of day had TEDS not been there to adopt it. The skiver hound was a creature concept I designed for a Primeval fan-fiction series of mine that I never got on it's feet. And the terrapod is leftover from an abandoned speculative evolution project. Most of the other creatures showcased on the TEDS website (eighth-sin.weebly.com/index.ht…
and in my gallery (deinonychusempire.deviantart.c…
were designed specifically for TEDS, but trust that I have plenty more concepts new and old that will eventually get themselves into the project. I always have plenty of concepts, my imagination is what I'm made of.
Which is another reason TEDS is very special to me. Sometimes I honestly wonder if I'd give up my creativity to have a good singing voice or some other natural talent. It's personal projects, especially TEDS, that keep me mindful of my own talents that I not envy those of others. No, I can't sing. No, I can't play any instruments. No, I've never been athletic or for that matter skilled at any of the sports my friends are skilled at. No, I'm not the best visual artist either (though I could be better than I am, I know I have it in me). But hell if I can't enslave myself to relentless pursuit in developing projects like TEDS; spending hours researching and drawing and writing and composing everything together until it's perfect. That's what I am, that's what I can do. I'm imaginative, a perfectionist, a task-force and a one-man army. And to me, the things I can create are as good as any song I can't sing or any masterpiece I can't paint. So indeed, my imagination is what I'm made of.